Day Four


Dear Diary,

                Today was easier. For whatever reason, I was happier today. I wish I could feel like that every day. I mean, I know that everyone is going to have a bad day. But I want to have a happier personality. I made plans to go shopping this weekend with my sister. When I am with her, it is always fun. She has an ability to make me laugh and distract me when I need it. And she is the only one who knows how to do it just right. We are really just doing some grocery shopping and picking up some things for our girls’ day, but I enjoy everything we do together.

                I have picked up an old hobby of mine. When I was little, I used to play with perler beads. You made shapes on little peg boards and then using an iron to fuse them together. I bought beads a few weeks ago and I started making some designs the other night. I have yet to iron them and fuse them together. It is relaxing to me. It gives me total control to decide what I want them to look like and which colors to use. It is time consuming and the slightest bump can ruin the design. I am excited to make all kinds of designs and shapes. It gives me a happy feeling and lets me keep my inner kid.

                I feel like I don’t have a lot to say today. Maybe it’s because I had a good day and I am feeling happy. I tend to write more when I am upset. I am almost through my first week of my journey. So far things have gone well. I am eager to see how I will change week from week. I know that at some point, I will have a bad week. I know that I may want to give up in that time. But I know that even when those weeks come, I will have to fight through it.

                I know this entry is short, and it actually bugs me. But I don’t have anything else to say at the moment. Maybe tomorrow’s will be longer.

~ Love Raine

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